Like Shooting Stars

That's right, my friends. Another year has gone by and it has now been TWO years since my lovely, wonderful kitteh Gracie left this world. She really was such a cool kitteh. So friendly and loveable. Could drink out of any kind of water bottle, and went ape shit for popsicles.

*sigh* I loved her soooo much and still miss her. As much as I love my kittehs now (and I really do love them!), they will never be Gracie.

So here's the same picspam I did last year... yes, many of you have seen it and you don't have to look again. I just feel I must post in her memory because well...she deserves it!


( Gracie!spam )

GRACIE - OCTOBER 1995 - MAY 31st, 2007


~Pip

So there was this writer's block not too long ago that said what would you need to post about to bring new readers to your journal up to speed on things - I never did that writer's block, obviously, and am way too lazy now to hunt it down, but I realized any new reader coming into this world of insanity of mine that all the 'code' names I use could get confusing (especially with all the Daniels/Dannys I have!). So I made a list - think of it as a cipher or keycode to this journal... plus, for those of you who never caught on to the nick names, here a master list of them all! ;D


There will be some I have never used, but might come up sometime in the future...or they will be in twitter posts

(These are in no particular order - I just wrote them as they came to me)


( The Stuffs )

I think that's it for now - if I've forgotten one, I'm sure someone will inform me!

[Error: unknown template qotd]Are you kidding me? My kittehs talk to me ALL THE TIME - they answer ALL KINDS OF QUESTIONS already! ;D


But if I really could know what they are saying, I'd have asked Gracie or would ask Sikozu what they think of me - do/did they love me as much as I love them? Do they think I'm completely weird when they give/gave me that 'you're a freak' look? What are/were their overall thoughts on ME as their owner?

And for Riley, it would be did he think he was alone right before he died? Was he scared and did he feel we sent him to his death? (The questions that have haunted me since that day)

It's been exactly one year since Gracie died....


*sigh* This year went by so damn fast, I just can't believe that it's been that long already.


And yet, I can b/c it feels like forever since I last held her, pet her, kissed her. It has been forever. A whole day without her is like forever - an entire year...that's just insane to believe it's real.


But it is real, and fact is though it gets easier, it still gets harder as well (if that makes any sense at all) because it's just lengthening the time since the last time I got to do those things with my pooh...


I do think about her everyday... i even had a moment on the roadtrip back from FSU last month where I actually thought 'I'm gonna get to see Gracie!' Yeah, you can imagine I was a little bummed when I realized immediately afterwards that it wouldn't be happening.


*sigh again* I just really want my Pooh back - I still don't think it's fair (never will).

I know it's selfish, but i don't care.


*iz sad*


But to honor the life that WAS Gracie Pooh, i give you picspam with some of my alltime favorite Gracie pics...

( Gracie!spam )

GRACIE - OCTOBER 1995 - MAY 31st, 2007

~Pip

Yeah, I'm feeling not very cheery right now - there's just a whole combination of uncool things that seem to be hitting me at once and it's getting me down...


Paris wrote on my wall on facebook, asking if I wanted to go see American Gangster tonight at the SLC. I wrote back sure, and what time cause I wasn't sure when and how many times it was playing. Well, I'm waiting and waiting and waiting for a reply, and at 7 decided to check to see what time it actually was playing - turns out it started at 6:30, and I never got any reply back from Paris...I'm kinda hoping she ended up not going instead of just not going with me. It's very highly likely it's the former thought, but I can't help but worry it's the second one...


I'm getting that feeling that the thing that always happens when I've been hanging out with a group of people for long enough is starting to happen. For some reason, whoever they are always seems to stop wanting to do things with me. It's happened so often that I'm pretty certain it's something I unnoticably do.


And I'm wondering if it's something I did again....*sigh* Cause seriously, I haven't really seen my friends since Tuesday (which was quite briefly)...and haven't really talked with them either. I'm sure I'm just over reacting, but I can't help but feel scared I've alienated myself again.



I'm also feeling quite painfully homesick. I miss my mom, and my kitties, and my home, and Ted. I miss the atmosphere of home, and I just want nothing more than to be there right now. I miss yelling across the house and sitting on the porch and dealing with the bazillion animals drama...*sigh* The feeling only hits home more when I think about my birthday in a week - first time I'll be away from my mom on my birthday. I'm not liking that...really, I'm not. Yesh, I'm a mama's girl and I have no shame in admitting it.


There's an essay I have to write for Myth which is due tomorrow. It's only 500 words, so it really won't take me that long, but in the mood I'm in, I really don't want to do it. I've been putting it off all day...and plan on putting it off a little more. It'll get done tonight, I promise you - but probably not until later tonight.


And oh, did I mention it's Valentine's Day and my Forever!Valentine isn't here anymore? God, I miss her so much. And the longer it's been since that day, it just seems to be getting harder and harder to live with it. Isn't it supposed to be the other way around? *sigh* I'm trying not to cry and let this upset me, but the sad thoughts are winning.


Even so, I'm trying to make myself think happy thoughts and remember all the greatness that was my Forever!Valentine....So I bring ya'll some picspam of her, because well, she's worth it!


( Forever!Valentine picspam! )


Well, slightly feeling better. Just txted everyone saying I had Valentine's stuff for them if they wanted them, and Paris txted me back. So at least I haven't been completely forgotten *shrugs*


Today hasn't all been sucky. Good things that have happened:


Finally got Billy - came Tuesday after all my impatient waiting. I haven't actually put it on the comp yet, but it's sitting on the bookshelf right next to me, just waiting for when I'm ready. I at least want to finish the Farscape novel that isn't mine and I stole with permission before I started listening to that.


Also got Barque of Heaven on Tuesday. It was quite nice 'cause I got both of them at the exact same time. It made me very very happy.


And then right after picking up those, I got back to my room and found out Ben is gonna be at Chicago Con. More exciting news in that regard - I went ahead and bought his autograph ticket (a $70 purchase, mind you). There's only going to be a limited number, so of course I had to get it. I mean, it's BEN BROWDER - it's rare that he does cons and this is going to be his first Stargate Con - how could I pass that up.


I'm planning on getting all the photo op tickets over the summer when I'm working (whether it's at Hebert's or somewhere else is still up in the air right now - not my own choice, btw). Thankfully, none of those (at least so far) are limited, so there's no rush to get them just yet.


Madre told me just a little bit ago on the phone that she went ahead and did something for next week - that was all she said, and obviously it's gonna be for my birthday.


But yeah, Ted called me and asked what kind of camera I bought. This was how the conversation went:


Ted: ...What kind of camera did you buy?
Me: A good one.
Ted: A good one...well, what kind of good one?
Me: A better one that you bought.


See how I miss being home? These are how all our conversations go, whether it be between me and Ted, or me and my mom, or Ted and my mom, or all three of us. Completely soaked in sarcasm and witty remarks, a concept that most people around here don't seem to grasp. Maybe that's why I come off the way I do to most people - b/c I was raised to be sarcastic and a smartass and I just can't help it.


Anywho, I've got some Farscape from netflix to play around with, so I'm gonna go. There's probably some macaronies and Capri Sun (which I happily got more of Friday night at Walmart!) in my near future!


~Pip





P.S: HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY FLIST!


P.S(squared): OMFG! TRAILER FOR INDY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! CLICK CLICK CLICK CLICK! I have officially watched it like ten times now, and have made an icon:



Ain't it shiny?? I started screamin' in a very fangirlish fashion right when the theme started and he went for his hat. I got goosepimples watching that part and grin like a maniac every single time *sigh* I am such a archaeo-geek and I love it! I WANT MAY 22nd TO COME SOON!!!! (Maybe when we go see Jumper this weekend the theater will show the trailer! One can only hope!)

Exactly 8 months ago today, I lost my kitty, my baby - Gracie...


Wow, I can't believe it's been that long already - more than half a year...


I miss her so much...so so so much.


I still want her back...I know it's selfish, and yet I still don't care. I just want her back..


I want to hold her again.


*sigh*


I want my pooh.